Hey there,

Ive just removed all my deviations. It was kinda fun as most of them were taken in important parts of Amy history... from coffs harbour... to gold coast... back to coffs harbour... then melbourne... and then gold coast again. Each representing a part in my life that was slightly significant.

I guess i want a clean slate. A new start. When i can afford it I will have a shiny SLR. I dont know if ill post them up here... I guess i want my art to be a personal thing for a while.

I'll still be around for those i watch.

I think i need a journey of self discovery. I feel pretty dead on the inside.

I'm on myspace if you want to add me.
myspace.com/hostilelobster

Later.

Yes, you read right. As of two minutes ago i have just requested annual leave for the 16th of feb to the 22nd of feb. If this gets approved, i will be booking my flights as soon as physically possible to come to melbourne TO VISIT YOU!

yes, you all know who you are! <3

I will certainly keep you updated.

PS if anyone knows a place i can crash, let me know!

Today, i dont want to be here.

I want to go down to byron bay. I want to swim at watigo's beach and walk the steps up to the lighthouse. I want to listen to the people who play the bongo's in the park and chat with strangers in the tavern. I want to watch the full moon rise over the sea. I want to eat the homemade gelato and walk around not wearing any shoes.

I dont want to offer direct debit and online billing. I dont want to answer calls and be screamed at. I want to stop feeling like a mindless souless robot with only one purpose in this life.

I dont want to be a slave to the system.

I just want to go to byron bay.

First of all i just wanted to apologise. For those of you on my myspace/deviantart you will notice small bullitens/journals with small poems or words that seem a little dark or depressing.

Im just dealing with some stuff in my life, and the hard part is, i have no idea how to deal with it. It comes out in these little ways that are strange and annoying i guess. Ive got messages saying im "emo" and all the rest, but whatever. I just get so tired of pretending to be happy, that i try to send out these little messages to let people know that hey, something isnt right. I dont do it for mindless attention, compliment fishing.

I just want someone to talk to.

Well, they have made me redundant at work.

Ive lost my apartment.

I feel like shit.